Our body is our gateway into our subconscious as our body holds our cellular memory. Therefore it is in my opinion the most magical tool we have.
When our subconscious is triggered our body creates physical sensations and releases emotions and feelings that correspond to subconscious painful life experiences.
People say that some women when they are pregnant can experience a kind of “pregnancy dementia”. This shows through a loss of memory, a kind of dyslectia (mixing up words) and a lack of focus/concentration/clarity and being here. It is also referred to as brain fog.
I experienced this brain fog. In my case I experienced this brain fog even after my pregnancy. I had to have an emergency c-section and went under full narcosis. I remember our daughter immediately being taken to the Intensive Care department, feeling exhausted trying to get some of my breast milk every three hours and visiting our daughter as often as we could for as long as we could.
After three days we had to say goodbye to her. I remember my partner driving us back and both feeling so weird, like dissociated from reality, being in another realm or on another timeline, leaving the hospital without our baby girl.
After we left the hospital I got back home. My sister in law had very kindly given us her workspace on the ground floor so I could recover physicaly. I experienced the recovery as intense. Physicaly but also emotionaly as I had my scar but no child to ease my pain.
This took place March 27th 2024 (the birth of our daughter) and March 30th (the departure of our daughter). And only now November 2024 I am noticing that my brain fog is starting to clear. It is starting to clear because it feels like my body is now releasing subconscious suppressed emotions/feelings and physical pain.
It feels quite surreal. As my mind knows the Divine Plan and The Bigger Picture behind the birth and death of our baby girl and therefore experiences a level of peace. However my body literaly and emotionaly carries the scar of the event and it feels like that my body is now ready to heal on deeper energetic layers.
Like I said our body is our gateway into our subconscious and our most magical tool. I mean how wise that it knows when it is time, when there is space to heal. How it protects us! What a friend!
Working with our body can trigger our subconscious and our cellular memory. I am certain that in my case starting back up with Kundalini Yoga is what triggered it. It is clearing my brain fog step by step and creating the space to trigger my cellulair memory, physical sensations and emotions/feelings in order to heal.
